Somebody asked me recently: “What do you think are your biggest challenges now? The kinds of things that keep your brain churning at night?”
Interesting question. On a personal level I think some sort of midlife ‘questioning’ period – not really a crisis as such. I am happy with myself as a person, but when I compare myself other people my age I don’t feel like I have achieved that much. I have a rich internal life, of which I am really proud. My experiences (getting divorced, being a single mom and then losing my job), have made me wise in a sense.
On the other hand, I feel that if someone were to look at my life from the outside, they wouldn’t describe it as particularly successful. I personally don’t have any financial measure of success, and it doesn’t really bother me, until it does. It’s not like I didn’t want those things for myself, you know. I did. I just never seemed to manage to “get it all”.
As I get older and wiser I have realised I am someone who always chooses relationships and people over material things. So there is a good reason why I am not rich. But, I am wealthy – I have a lovely daughter who I would give my life for in a second.
So to sum it up – my challenge in life is to keep looking inward for solutions, creativity and happiness. Not outward, to the world.
I hope you will join me on this journey of discovery and find some measure of inspiration for you life too.